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getting to know sina denise holst

posted Oct 24, 2009, 7:18 AM by sina@projectvolunteering.net


1.      what animal best describes you

firefly. I might be small, but hell I blink in the dark.

2.      if you could transport yourself to any location in the world right now, where would you go?

Still here.

3.      what would you take with you (to the chosen location?

Heart, body and soul.

4.      complit the sentence: i get annoyed in the house when…

people ignore problems, or dont see problems. This is a general statement though, not directed at anyone specific

5.      complit the sentence: i love it when..

I fall asleep alone and wake up with three more people on our matress – I spend the whole morning in the kitchen and watch the conversation flow from mouth to mouth – hugging! - the doorbell rings – there is jogurt in the fridge - ….

6.      who would you choose to meet in a dark allee with a bat in your hands?

Catwoman.

7.      who would you choose to meet in the commen privat room for more than a nice chat ;)

Catwoman!

8.      what ability would you choose to have in a second? (playing guitar, speaking thai ect..)

think and feel through someone elses thoughts and feelings

9.      in my point of view, the greatest person ever to live is…

me!

10.     what’s you best quality?

Making someone smile without warning.

11.     what’s your worst?

a mad ambition about fusbol.

12.     what would you like to do or accomplish before you’ll die

save the planet

establish a society based on tenderness

overcome words

redefine love

write a hundred novels

write one poem, that says more than all novels ever written

realize, that words never led anywhere

yet never be bitter

and still smile when im 105.


home sweet home :)

posted Oct 24, 2009, 7:15 AM by sina@projectvolunteering.net

Home sweet home questionnaire – part 1

"What is my home?” 


  • What is your definition of “HOMEand “HOUSE?

    • A home is a state of being shaped of tenderness and care, it is everywhere I feel loved, saved, respected and appreciated, and am capable of giving all of those. Nonetheless it is a place of conflict, because it is the basis of growth, its where and whom I come back to in all states of being. A House is a building, a space, where you can establish a home.

  • With how many people (min. and max.) are you willing to share your home?

    • I cant say. I feel there is a too much, but I can impossibly put it in numbers. I havent lived here long enough to know wheter we are too many.

  • You are now living @ PHB: Permanent Hospitality Berlin. What does it mean for you?

    • Being home in a flexible, moving, changing, yet warm, open, caring, exchanging community. Coming home with the sensation of excitement about not knowing who will be there and what we will talk about, but knowing I am welcome.

  • You are now living in a houseproject (oder HausProjekt). Why did you choose so?

    • Curiosity. I want to know how life can be, and how I will want it in the future. I believe in communal happiness and sharing.

  • What is the best definition for the people with whom you are sharing the house? Flatmates, family, tribe, group of friends, acquaintances, collegues etc...? Why?

    • There is no such general definition. There are feelings of family, friends (though I dont distinguish clearly between both). People with hearts wide open?

  • Living in PHB: what is great and what is awful?



Home sweet home questionnaire – part 2

"a new place?


I want to live in a communal environment. A privat room is nice but no neccessity. I have colours and canvases at my old neighbors apartment that I want to be working with. My guitar as well. I think, public space is very important, as well as a clear seperation from private space. Of course a house with a store downstairs would be perfect, but I believe it is more about the will we put into this. Also, there is always public space we could use, if we were working on public workshops (famous eyample is the tea house). The question is more, what are we working on? is there a common we?


I cannot answer these questions today, because I dont know.


To be continued...


Oct 24th reflections plus thoughts

posted Oct 24, 2009, 7:13 AM by sina@projectvolunteering.net

There are many thoughts waiting to be stated here.

I want to say THANK YOU to Dan, Theresa, Nathalie and Tau for your sweet comments and the huge smile they left on my face!

I want to report on my reflections about this place, myself, the universe and mankind.


today is the 16th day of my project volunteering full time existence. You can read what I thought before I came (scroll down...). Ill sum it up – I was quite enthusiastic. todaz also is the 24th and im finally posting.


I  am smiling.


What I want to adress is -


do I give as much as I want to give and share? Am I reflecting as much as I want, am I personally growing in the way I want to? Are we as a community, are we as friends, growing?


The first week I enjoyed a lot of time and energy here. I felt confronted with the concepts and problems of responsibility, sensibility, social overload (what I would call that state when you just cant talk anymore, because you just had way too much of everything), frustration, communication, hope, and so on and on. Each of these concepts I want to treat deeply with time and thought documenting their development. Not tonight though.


I met lots of new people and, of course in varying ways, I saw light in all of you them us whatever. Meaning – there are / we are / so many beautiful souls here filled with great and crazy ideas, presents, pasts, dreams, that it is overwhelming. BUT – overwhelming in a most positive way. I see an incredible amount of potential.


Do we live up to our potentials ? Do you? Do I?


Lets work on it.


The second week, I spend a lot less time here than during the first. My university started, and I have fallen into a deep obsession with my classes, classmates, teachers and papers. I love it. I can feel everyday how my horizon widens, how my thoughts become clearer, my mind more focussed. This is majorly important for me. It is changing my life.


Being gone so much, I tried being here as sensitively as I could, thinking, less time, more deepness. This led to the point that my only quiet reflection time became those 50 minutes I spend on the train towards or from Uni, plus sleeping (I strongly believe in subconscious reflections during sleeping periods). That is not enough. In order to live more consciously, I need to take more time for reflecting. (first personal goal for the rest of my life)


Good topic. Personal goals.


I want to give a workshop soon, the idea for the topic at this point is the concept of roles in society and in our personal lifes. I have been discussing an interesting text in class about acters and how they represent the utmost human nature of presenting themselves constantly, and it opens the question, whether we ever are natural (or whether acting itself is more natural), and it aims at becoming more conscious of roles we imply for ourselves and others in our everyday lives. If I find some of you are interested in this as well, I am working on structuring it into a nice introduction for a discussion.


I want to start many workshops afterwards, because I am in love with this concept. I want to participate in more. I want to propose to have more workshops following Claytons idea – talk about your personal goals, your expectations and feelings, why you are in the project, etc (though I wasnt actually there when it happened and dont know how it turned out, but I like the idea, plus it adds on to knowing more about each others motivations)


Basically this adresses to what may have said and felt in the last weeks – to be in a more frequent interaction with each other. As a dayly meeting failed in happening, frequent workshops could be an idea.


Theresa and I want Keinst to help us make Pizza for everyone SOON.


I want to start thinking about a new place, but I still have to deal with becoming a berlin resident and some how-to-borrow-money-from-your-government first.


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